Anxious. Worried. Confused.

But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it's better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you're fighting for.

I know I could've done better. Nonetheless, I still believe that I've always done my best. :)

Of the 'what if's' and the 'what might have beens'

"It's been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been. But what of a man whose faced with what was? Or what may never be? Or what can no longer be? Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be. And that's when we find our way to something better. Or when something better finds its way to us."

"At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are
running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is ONE."

October Fever.

Yay! It's the first day of October today! Two months to go before Christmas. Can't help but be excited. It's my favorite time of the year, ya know. :) Expect me to post my Christmas wish list here next time. Hahaha. Cheers for all the surprises this month may bring! :)

By the way, here's a quote from someone I considered as an inspiration. Truly, Hellen Keller had three good excuses to be a failure: she was deaf, blind, and she was a woman. But this extraordinary person proved that there is no excuse to fail or to be unhappy. Indeed, WE all deserve to be happy and to achieve our dreams in spite of everything. Let's keep that in mind. (Oh yes, I really will especially now that I have to start reviewing again for my exams. HAHAHA. :p) Toodles. :)

"Be of good cheer. Do not think of today's failures, but of the success that may come tomorrow. You have set yourself a difficult task, but you will succeed if you persevere; and you will find a joy in overcoming obstacles."

Geez, this storm's terrible. Several properties were damaged and worse, lives lost. I really felt sad hearing about families on their roofs with nowhere to go. Wala siyang pinili, mahirap man o mayaman. Even celebrities were severely affected and badly in need of help. It broke my heart watching the news and seeing dead bodies being recovered. WE weren't ready for this. Indeed, it is such a tragic tale.

Today I realized how blessed I am and my family. We weren't that affected. On a positive side, I can't deny how Ondoy gathered the Filipino people and keep that Bayanihan spirit alive. God, I thank you. I understand, You consider this as a wake up call for all of us. With strong faith I believe WE can surpass this.

Let us pray for each other. In times like this, it wouldn't hurt to help. In our own little way, we can effect change. :)

Sometimes, I just can't understand myself. I tend to be too sensitive and my mood swings are getting terrible these days. Geez, what's happening to me? I'm sorry. Thank you for understanding me when sometimes I know that you really don't.